September 11-12, 2003 - Poetry...Beit Chabad...Reiki

Well, just go back to Thursday afternoon and finish up the day4:30...sitting in Beit Chabad, of course I arrived early as usual... REAL nice music playing in the background. They've actually opened a Kosher restaurant here and they seem to serve quite nice meals. The Rav here is named Dror and I had a nice conversation with him. I made myself available for referrals and perhaps will go up for Shabbat (but not his week)...must rest. I will also take a 5 day couse in 2 weeks on Kabbalah and Letters and my name. Sounds interesting. 4 hours a day including meals...500 rupees. He and his family have a real hard life here...3 little kids...no conditions to speak of and he works non-stop all day and says he worries non-stop all nite.He founded the place 4 years ago and says anyone who REALLY wants to do something to change, or make a difference i in this world, must expect his life to be difficult.Well, at any rate, he gave me a new book to read "Living in Divine Space-Kabbalah and Meditation" written in English by a former American living in Kfar Chabad- Rabbi Yitzchak Ginsburg. I will check it out. This, after the follwoing poem which came to me while I was waiting for lunch today. this is the 2nd poem I've written since coming here... I will write both of them at the end of this e-mail...
I've been up and back to Dharamkot 2x in one day! (OK-second time I didn't walk up-took a rickshaw) and I feel great. Did my yoga and now 8 PM...Thali and music and book and off to sleep....more tomorrow...
Sept 12thWoke up feeling really "heavy" today. I think I did too much my first few days. and have not been drinking enough so also have a heaviness in my head. Will be more aware of myself from now on. So decided to just relax today and the weather is helping by being chilly and quite rainy. Sat for a long time on the terrace and got invlovled in "deep stuff" with 2 young Israeli girls. One 27 one 21. Won't go into detials but of course it invovles relationships (what else). Nicole finally decided to come try Reiki. it is now 4 PM and we just finished. I feel wonderful and it was a very powerful session for her. it is her first meeting with any type of healing and she went "quite deep" inside. I'm pleased for her. Hope she comes again. Many problems for only 21 years old. But she is the 3rd person to say something to me in 3 days and I am starting to believe it. At first it was just 2 guys so I kind of thought it was probably a "come on"...Akhilesh said it, but he could just be flattering me, and anil at the the tea house the other day, but he may be, as strange as it sounds, looking for something...so I tended not to place too much weight on their comments...but now Nicole, a sweet 21 year old girl said the same type of thing, in similar words even... My skin is so smooth...so glowing...my face is so young...such positive loving energy all around me!...Really nice to be seen like that....Anyway, will rest for awhile now and if the rain lets up, go out a bit...
6:30....Showered, but it is till raining outside...so I went back out to terrace and found the kids still there and I learnt a card game called "switch"...not really meant for old ladies but "they" could not give in and made me keep playing and wouldn't let me give up...it went for many rounds and score is kept...the 2 girls, a new guy I didn't know and Nathan, the Australian guy were playing. Only the girls knew how 2 play. so I came in pretty good...I came in 3rd! That's when they found out how old I was...must be the poor lighting up here in the mountains...they also thought, like Anil at the tea house, that I was between 40-45 tops! Now I am down at Nicks for coffee and cake, will then check e-mail and then eat dinner and call it a day...quite fun for a lasy day.
Now the two poems I promised:

LIGHT
Growing from within
Joining without
Becoming one with
And part of the Whole
Expanding into the oneness of the Whole
Bringing forth from the depths its love and protection to surround and enfold me
To make me one with Divine Spirit, almighty
Our joining in partnership- the supreme miracle of the Universal forces
of Love and Light!

second one....

My Love is whole
My Love is trueMy Love runs deep
Deeper than ever before
But where will it flow to
If it has no banks to direct it's course?
YOU must be the banks.
Strong, dependable, guiding the course of my Love and our lives
I can now only be the river of love which flows within your banks
My energies can no longer determine the course
Envelope me in your banks of loving strength and direction
YOU must be the master of our love
If the banks collapse the river of my Love will disperse
and may never find a true course again.

Sept. 12th 8:30 PM – and a 3rd one that came in the evening after writing the above e-mail so I’ve included it also….

ALONE
Why?
Why are others always an intrusion?
I don't seek them yet they find me...
Must I become invisible to be ALONE?
Or is this part of who, what I am
Flowing along and blending into the river of common pain
Floating as a log for those drowning to latch on to.
Where is the log meant to keep me afloat?
Or have I been given the strength to stay afloat ALONE?
Do I draw my strenths from my ALONENESS?
Or from the giving OF myself?
Who will be there to keep me from drowning
When there is no more strength to draw on?
I am surrounded by heavenly love and protection...
Spiritually I am never ALONE...
But...
I am physical as well
As is my life...
All the new that awaits me...
All the changes to be made...
All the wonders still to reveal themselves...
Are not meant to be experienced ALONE
My soul, my heart, my body all yearn
For the one with the same yearnings
To continue the journey together in our ALONENESS...

Can there be such a miracle?