Sept 14, 2003-Tarot Reading "Silence" + Silent, Lovely Forest Walk...Angels and Modeh Ani
After writing the last poem, which just came to me from somewhere within, I was not quiet. It's almost as if it was written by a stranger and I read it as an outsider and am still trying to completely understand it....but it WAS written by me and must have brought stuff to the surface which has been smoldering within, very deep, for some time...what to do with it exactly, I am still not quite sure...
At any rate, did a Tarot reading asking about :"aloneness"...the card of "silence" came up...I quote"seek out those who can resonate with your silence, or enjoy your aloneness...Now is the time to come home to yourself. The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of your life"...And what song is playing at the same moment? "Somewhere over the Rainbow"...just one of those perfectly beautiful moments!
Sunday..11:40 AM
I'm sitting in the midst of a pine and rhodedandrun forest on a path I've never explored before. I had wanted to ask Kelly this morning before I left where these different paths lead to but he was still doing his "morning stuff" and decided not to wait. besides, it doesn't really matter WHERE they go to now does it? so decided to go up to Dharamkot and continue across past the water tower...but when I got a little up past Tushita my hips started complaining about the steep climb and just then I reached these "other" paths...so I took a quick look, it seemed to be straight...not uphill...and started walking...don't know how long I've been walking but I am just going deeper and deeper into the forest - straight towering pines stretch up and all around disappearing into the clouds and as far down the slope I can see just more of the same. Some might call it forbidding, or even have a sense of forboding...I just find it welcoming and tranquil. There are little paths going off down the slopes abut I am not intrepid enough to attempt them alone. So will just continue on my way.
Well, all of a sudden a pipeline began along th e path and was curious to see where it lead. and all of a sudden the forest ended in a clearing, like a gorge, and then continues on the other side (later Kelly told me a few years back this was the result of a massive landslide...that originally there was no gorge here!)...again...I'm not daring enough to negotiate the gorge alone and continue so will head back. There is a blue butterfly here which just keeps flitting around and honeysuckle being flavored by a large honey bee.
WOW! Just as I was ready to leave, the mist lifted and I see the whole valley spread out below me! Took a before and after shot but pics never do justice to the majesty of these changing mountain scenes. I can literally see the clouds lifting and floating up to the top of the forge and dispersing themselves-joining with the higher clouds up above. Other clouds-dark ones, are beginning to roll in now from the valley to replace those that lifted, again closing off the window I received for a few moments-it is starting to rain so I better get going.
All along the path now are light brown , enormous slugs which I at first mistook for dried leaves...I must be careful not to step on one.
also saw footprints which were not human in some of the mud...they were definitely some kind of animal tracks and spooked me a little. Kelly said yes, there are still panthers in these woods and also mongoose...so who knows?
Funny expereince this morning...was talking to anat who was telling me about chance meetings with people just at the right time and we began talking about angels watching over us and she asked how she could return the good deeds done for her and how to thank God for always looking over her. I told her we return the deeds when we also do some kindness for another person in need, and then WE become God's angels for the moment....and that I thank god every morning for his taking care of me by simply saying Modeh Ani...nothing says it better...she is a 27 year old Israeli and did not know the words...she said once she heard there was such a prayer....so I taught it to her, and she agreed that yes indeed, it is the prefect way to say thank you each day...(A sort of translation would be...I give thanks before you, living and eternal King, who has in compassion returned my soul to me...Your faithfulness is great...(You can always be relied on).....
So,,,will end here...I am real tired now...long walk, good meal, more walking and just sitting here catching up on mail....
At any rate, did a Tarot reading asking about :"aloneness"...the card of "silence" came up...I quote"seek out those who can resonate with your silence, or enjoy your aloneness...Now is the time to come home to yourself. The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of your life"...And what song is playing at the same moment? "Somewhere over the Rainbow"...just one of those perfectly beautiful moments!
Sunday..11:40 AM
I'm sitting in the midst of a pine and rhodedandrun forest on a path I've never explored before. I had wanted to ask Kelly this morning before I left where these different paths lead to but he was still doing his "morning stuff" and decided not to wait. besides, it doesn't really matter WHERE they go to now does it? so decided to go up to Dharamkot and continue across past the water tower...but when I got a little up past Tushita my hips started complaining about the steep climb and just then I reached these "other" paths...so I took a quick look, it seemed to be straight...not uphill...and started walking...don't know how long I've been walking but I am just going deeper and deeper into the forest - straight towering pines stretch up and all around disappearing into the clouds and as far down the slope I can see just more of the same. Some might call it forbidding, or even have a sense of forboding...I just find it welcoming and tranquil. There are little paths going off down the slopes abut I am not intrepid enough to attempt them alone. So will just continue on my way.
Well, all of a sudden a pipeline began along th e path and was curious to see where it lead. and all of a sudden the forest ended in a clearing, like a gorge, and then continues on the other side (later Kelly told me a few years back this was the result of a massive landslide...that originally there was no gorge here!)...again...I'm not daring enough to negotiate the gorge alone and continue so will head back. There is a blue butterfly here which just keeps flitting around and honeysuckle being flavored by a large honey bee.
WOW! Just as I was ready to leave, the mist lifted and I see the whole valley spread out below me! Took a before and after shot but pics never do justice to the majesty of these changing mountain scenes. I can literally see the clouds lifting and floating up to the top of the forge and dispersing themselves-joining with the higher clouds up above. Other clouds-dark ones, are beginning to roll in now from the valley to replace those that lifted, again closing off the window I received for a few moments-it is starting to rain so I better get going.
All along the path now are light brown , enormous slugs which I at first mistook for dried leaves...I must be careful not to step on one.
also saw footprints which were not human in some of the mud...they were definitely some kind of animal tracks and spooked me a little. Kelly said yes, there are still panthers in these woods and also mongoose...so who knows?
Funny expereince this morning...was talking to anat who was telling me about chance meetings with people just at the right time and we began talking about angels watching over us and she asked how she could return the good deeds done for her and how to thank God for always looking over her. I told her we return the deeds when we also do some kindness for another person in need, and then WE become God's angels for the moment....and that I thank god every morning for his taking care of me by simply saying Modeh Ani...nothing says it better...she is a 27 year old Israeli and did not know the words...she said once she heard there was such a prayer....so I taught it to her, and she agreed that yes indeed, it is the prefect way to say thank you each day...(A sort of translation would be...I give thanks before you, living and eternal King, who has in compassion returned my soul to me...Your faithfulness is great...(You can always be relied on).....
So,,,will end here...I am real tired now...long walk, good meal, more walking and just sitting here catching up on mail....
posted by Jane @ 3:02 PM
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