November 8, 2003-There's No Place Like Home
Dear All,
didn't think I would write today...the day I am leaving, but woke up this morning and my thoughts had to be put down on paper...so here they are...
Just to finish up my day yesterday...Met Evelyn by chance at Nick's..we are 2 people who could really be very good friends if we lived near each other...we seem to have complete parallel lives and it is quite amazaing. Hope to see her also next year when we both come back.
Then I just did little things I had to before meeting up at the Korean place. First, I must just say a few things here about the way things happen.
I've spent the major part of my time here with non-Israelis-It was not conscious but just happened. The few short encounters with Israelis however always made me feel good. The fact that I wound up "by chance" spending my last few days ONLY with Israelies, well./.. It is the perfect ending to my journey making me realize even more powerfully and intensely where my home is and who my people are!
These 4 people...Sharon and Ori, Alon and Alma. Sharon is from Haifa and Ori from Ayelet Hashachar (married) anad were living in Kiryat Ono before they left. Alon is from Omer and Alma from Ramat Aviv Gimel (also married) and were living in Sheinkin before they left. Both men were combat soldiers during a very difficult period, each spending over a year in Lebanon and Alon remembers "watching over me" when I lived in Gush Katif as well. Four very different people with very varied backgrounds and family history. But one heart and soul. No pretense, REAL people, and all 4 with both a (still) great hope that there will eventually be a normal life in Israel and a agreat sadness that they even HAVE the need to get away for awhile. Sadness about so many things, much cynicism, despair, anger even...but still so much love for and attachment and loyalty to what we all call home. It has been such a pleasant few days.- for me the most real and comfortable days...the sense of TRULY belonging and being completely myself...the knowing, the understanding, the NOT having to explain things...the feeling was "this is, beyond a doubt, where you belong"...something like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz when she is clicking her heels together and saying "there's no place like home:...the ambivilence has left! I'M GOING HOME!...couldn't care less what is waiting for me...it's where I want to be now!.
וגם מי שהולך מעבר לים
מנסה לשבת בארץ ניכר
משהו בלב מחזירו לכאן
אם לא היום אז אולי מחר
In the words of Chaim Moshe....
didn't think I would write today...the day I am leaving, but woke up this morning and my thoughts had to be put down on paper...so here they are...
Just to finish up my day yesterday...Met Evelyn by chance at Nick's..we are 2 people who could really be very good friends if we lived near each other...we seem to have complete parallel lives and it is quite amazaing. Hope to see her also next year when we both come back.
Then I just did little things I had to before meeting up at the Korean place. First, I must just say a few things here about the way things happen.
I've spent the major part of my time here with non-Israelis-It was not conscious but just happened. The few short encounters with Israelis however always made me feel good. The fact that I wound up "by chance" spending my last few days ONLY with Israelies, well./.. It is the perfect ending to my journey making me realize even more powerfully and intensely where my home is and who my people are!
These 4 people...Sharon and Ori, Alon and Alma. Sharon is from Haifa and Ori from Ayelet Hashachar (married) anad were living in Kiryat Ono before they left. Alon is from Omer and Alma from Ramat Aviv Gimel (also married) and were living in Sheinkin before they left. Both men were combat soldiers during a very difficult period, each spending over a year in Lebanon and Alon remembers "watching over me" when I lived in Gush Katif as well. Four very different people with very varied backgrounds and family history. But one heart and soul. No pretense, REAL people, and all 4 with both a (still) great hope that there will eventually be a normal life in Israel and a agreat sadness that they even HAVE the need to get away for awhile. Sadness about so many things, much cynicism, despair, anger even...but still so much love for and attachment and loyalty to what we all call home. It has been such a pleasant few days.- for me the most real and comfortable days...the sense of TRULY belonging and being completely myself...the knowing, the understanding, the NOT having to explain things...the feeling was "this is, beyond a doubt, where you belong"...something like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz when she is clicking her heels together and saying "there's no place like home:...the ambivilence has left! I'M GOING HOME!...couldn't care less what is waiting for me...it's where I want to be now!.
וגם מי שהולך מעבר לים
מנסה לשבת בארץ ניכר
משהו בלב מחזירו לכאן
אם לא היום אז אולי מחר
In the words of Chaim Moshe....
posted by Jane @ 2:31 PM
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