Musings - Angels and More
Tuesday, September 9th...5:30 PM- Musings and Insights while reading "The Valkyries"I am lying here in bed and again this overwhelming feeling of gratitude, of peace, of rightness has brought me to breathless tears.I am laying in my bed, facing a full wall bay window looking out on the forest...I am one with the forest...misty wet, greyish green from the clouds, the trees seem to envelope me through the barrier of the window....I am reading, listening to music...I cannot think of a thing that I would change...even the smell of the monsoon dampness is correct for today. I've been here only since yesterday but I think my soul has been here forever and the feelings I am experiencing are coming from the true depths of my soul Otherwise, I cannot rationally explain the power of my sensations.
11:30 PM....I relaxed for awhile before, then did yoga, than ate a FABULOUS thali that Ashish made for me...just as good as any I ate in chennai, and to my taste, even better...2 years ago I couldn't enjoy his wonderful cooking as it was too spicey for me...now I will be eating his food alot I see and enjoying the simplicity and convenience of not having to go out all the time...as well as the price...whole meal cost 40 rupees!
Then I fell asleep around 9:30 or so...all of a sudden there is a knock on my door...I was sound asleep, as was the whole town.."telephone" cries Ashish...I was too surprised to even be worried and put on my fleece jacket and went out to answer...it was Chanale...she had not really considered the time, but since the phone is in the lobby, and my talking would have woken everyone in the entire guesthouse, and the phone is actually in Ashish's "bedroom" and HE was awakened...I cut it real short and will call her back today.It was 11:30 here and when I got back to the room found I was unable to fall back to sleep...I have long ago given up tossing and turning in bed when this happens, and just switched on the light and picked up "The Valkyries" again (In the end, I read it through to the end and fell peacefully asleep at around 2 AM after writing some of the following...and part of the following was written when I woke this morning at 7 feeling completely and totally refreshed and alert)
I will not go into details about the book...if you've read it you will understand better...if not...it is an amazing book (although perhaps the timing also has to be right when you read it to really appreciate the depths of ideas presented)...
I realize now that HERE is MY desert and the place I must come to in order to forget my second mind and begin to understand truly direction and purpose, channeling and faith. Entry into the world of light and following a dream without giving up obligations. How we destroy ourselves by not remembering where we came from and that the gate is open for all to pass through-we must simply be reminded of it's existence which we have forgotten over the years. And those of us who now remember what we once knew many years ago...who have been reminded by an event, a serious loss or illness, a book, a song, a poem or another person-now have the job of helping others, those who are willing and open, to remember as well by speaking of this wherever we go and as often as possible.
"Have courage-open your heart and listen....only a person who is not ashamed can manifest the glory of God"...Each person will arrive at this place via a different path-and his angels alone can guide him...if he learns to listen.Page 153-Now I know why you brought me to this book today!...To confirm what I've been saying and have know for years about about. "You" being my imaginary friends all those years ago in my childhood until I was forced to "banish" you...and who I now know to be my Spirit Guides....Just a few days ago I spoke of angels and imaginary friends children have and of adults who make us forget...and here it is all written in the same words by another persnon!!! But YOU never abandoned me and now I wonder which of us is happier at the reunion.. YOU or ME??...Are you crying as many tears of joy as I am? I think you are...I have felt you so close all day spurring me onto read more and there is nothing unique in what I am reading...but powerful confirmation of what I know now to be true and what I feel...you have brought me to this "desert" to allow me this.
"Fill my heart with enthusiasm"....a wonderful thing to pray for!
"I have no idea what awaits me, but I want to get back-I need love affection. I need someone who can protect me here on earth just as my angels protect me in heaven. " (pp 159)...it is as if Valhalla is speaking my thoughts here-In just a few words, she says it all.
Near end of book-seeing angels and then what happned to me-being told to pick up pen and paper and write and then just having the words or ideas or even poems spoken to me...really weird seeing it written in a book by someone else! again confirmation for me!
Upon awakening this morning...You have to be willing and ready to allow your soul to grow to feel the true magic of this place.(or whatever your own place may be)...Only then will you be open to feel and know the tangible energies of this place. We all reach the PLACE special place of our own soul in different ways...but do we always know when we have arrived? If we allow our angels and guides to direct us, and we listen to them, we will each find our own magical place where our soul can truly grow...it may not be the same "physical" place for all of us...but it exists for all of us and once found, it will continue to call us back. I have been lead to this place and having found it 2 years ago, have never really left. Anyone TRULY desiring to find their soul's place can do so, as I did. I am nothing special...Let your spirit, your angel, your guide, your intuition, your dream lead you there. Do not wait until "the time is right"...the time is never right...we always have others who need us, obligations, things we must do...but we must love ourselves enough to find this place our soul seeks...true peace, happiness, contentment and tranquility will follow.
Love to you all....Jane
11:30 PM....I relaxed for awhile before, then did yoga, than ate a FABULOUS thali that Ashish made for me...just as good as any I ate in chennai, and to my taste, even better...2 years ago I couldn't enjoy his wonderful cooking as it was too spicey for me...now I will be eating his food alot I see and enjoying the simplicity and convenience of not having to go out all the time...as well as the price...whole meal cost 40 rupees!
Then I fell asleep around 9:30 or so...all of a sudden there is a knock on my door...I was sound asleep, as was the whole town.."telephone" cries Ashish...I was too surprised to even be worried and put on my fleece jacket and went out to answer...it was Chanale...she had not really considered the time, but since the phone is in the lobby, and my talking would have woken everyone in the entire guesthouse, and the phone is actually in Ashish's "bedroom" and HE was awakened...I cut it real short and will call her back today.It was 11:30 here and when I got back to the room found I was unable to fall back to sleep...I have long ago given up tossing and turning in bed when this happens, and just switched on the light and picked up "The Valkyries" again (In the end, I read it through to the end and fell peacefully asleep at around 2 AM after writing some of the following...and part of the following was written when I woke this morning at 7 feeling completely and totally refreshed and alert)
I will not go into details about the book...if you've read it you will understand better...if not...it is an amazing book (although perhaps the timing also has to be right when you read it to really appreciate the depths of ideas presented)...
I realize now that HERE is MY desert and the place I must come to in order to forget my second mind and begin to understand truly direction and purpose, channeling and faith. Entry into the world of light and following a dream without giving up obligations. How we destroy ourselves by not remembering where we came from and that the gate is open for all to pass through-we must simply be reminded of it's existence which we have forgotten over the years. And those of us who now remember what we once knew many years ago...who have been reminded by an event, a serious loss or illness, a book, a song, a poem or another person-now have the job of helping others, those who are willing and open, to remember as well by speaking of this wherever we go and as often as possible.
"Have courage-open your heart and listen....only a person who is not ashamed can manifest the glory of God"...Each person will arrive at this place via a different path-and his angels alone can guide him...if he learns to listen.Page 153-Now I know why you brought me to this book today!...To confirm what I've been saying and have know for years about about. "You" being my imaginary friends all those years ago in my childhood until I was forced to "banish" you...and who I now know to be my Spirit Guides....Just a few days ago I spoke of angels and imaginary friends children have and of adults who make us forget...and here it is all written in the same words by another persnon!!! But YOU never abandoned me and now I wonder which of us is happier at the reunion.. YOU or ME??...Are you crying as many tears of joy as I am? I think you are...I have felt you so close all day spurring me onto read more and there is nothing unique in what I am reading...but powerful confirmation of what I know now to be true and what I feel...you have brought me to this "desert" to allow me this.
"Fill my heart with enthusiasm"....a wonderful thing to pray for!
"I have no idea what awaits me, but I want to get back-I need love affection. I need someone who can protect me here on earth just as my angels protect me in heaven. " (pp 159)...it is as if Valhalla is speaking my thoughts here-In just a few words, she says it all.
Near end of book-seeing angels and then what happned to me-being told to pick up pen and paper and write and then just having the words or ideas or even poems spoken to me...really weird seeing it written in a book by someone else! again confirmation for me!
Upon awakening this morning...You have to be willing and ready to allow your soul to grow to feel the true magic of this place.(or whatever your own place may be)...Only then will you be open to feel and know the tangible energies of this place. We all reach the PLACE special place of our own soul in different ways...but do we always know when we have arrived? If we allow our angels and guides to direct us, and we listen to them, we will each find our own magical place where our soul can truly grow...it may not be the same "physical" place for all of us...but it exists for all of us and once found, it will continue to call us back. I have been lead to this place and having found it 2 years ago, have never really left. Anyone TRULY desiring to find their soul's place can do so, as I did. I am nothing special...Let your spirit, your angel, your guide, your intuition, your dream lead you there. Do not wait until "the time is right"...the time is never right...we always have others who need us, obligations, things we must do...but we must love ourselves enough to find this place our soul seeks...true peace, happiness, contentment and tranquility will follow.
Love to you all....Jane
posted by Jane @ 12:25 AM
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