November 1, 2004-Channeling and Sparrow
November 2nd-Election Day
Well, I'll go back to yesterday eventually, but first want to write that things are falling nicely into place. I arealize now that aside from all the other shit going on, I was also sick for at least a week with some virus which seems to be literally floating around town. I am sure it is airborne as almost everyone you meet seems to have it in one form or another, some worse, some not so bad. Abdellah had it the worst of all of us at the guesthouse, I was someplace in the middle, now Avik seems to have picked it up although he is to vain to admit that he is human enough to actually get sick like everyone else who he had been calling "hypochondriacs" for days! It involved headachs, slight cold and cough, eventually found it's way to the stomach for a few days but the biggest symptom for everyone seemed to be complete draining of energy, which can be very depressing to say the least. I did lots and lots of reiki and fi nally went to get the horrible "goat turd" pills from the Tibetan doctor and I seemed to be almost completely recovered...I certainly feel alot more energy and have my appetite back but am sure I lost weight over the past week...that will be a first for me in India!!
The weather remains cold but beautiful and I've gotten some more warm clothing to tide me over...the Tibetan doctor actually blamed the cold dry weather for the spread of "something" in the air...same as a western doctor telling you a virus was around....
Anyway, things seem to be coming into focus for me more and more each day...I have very littel money to get me through the next 10 days but will make due...Still need to buy a few things the girls asked for and have hopefully budgeted for it...if not I will have to borrow from Avik and pay him back when I get home...hate to do that!
Anyway...Yesterday morning I had a really beautiful channeling which I will write in a moment, and this morning, was up really early as I usually am when I am feeling well and by 7:45 was already out on the roof after shower, meditation, laundry etc. And then I just sat there with my eyes closed absorbing the warmth of the sun down to the depth of my soul, absorbing the sounds and smells and feel of the air on my face...the bird calls etc. When all of a sudden I heard a bird chirping (it was more like a consistent call to me to listen) very close by. When I opened my eyes he was sitting directly opposite me, looking at me and chirping as if talking to be to listen. He sat there for more than 5 minutes and didn't stop "talking" the whole time! It was quite amazing, and it brought me back to a similar incident 3 years ago when I woke up one morning to find a bird IN my room also talking to me...Both were sparrows which are called in hebrew tzipor dror which means bird of freedom, and they both brought the same message to me...reminding me of the importance of freedom and the terrible things we do to ourselves when we "sell our souls" for any reason....freedom in the sense of being true to yourself no matter what and not thinking that someone else can make life easier for you or that love can bring you freedom...these things are external and temporary ...only what comes from inside and is true is what is real and right....
And now to the channeling from YESTERDAY morning!!
It's gone it's over forget it...mistakes happen...don't delude yourself ever again in the future. LIsten to us and your soul more carefully. Don't think you "know better". Thinking is what you do best and do worst. Don't use thinking in the wrong situations. Move on to a better place=- better things will then follow. We ARE always here but you are not! We love you and always do our best but we cannot do it alone. So be with US as we are with you and things will be easier for you-life is a good place to be...you know that but have a way of screwing things up when you think you know best at the wrong times. Go inside more-not outside. Listen more carefully-be more aware. You are one with your soul and it will never be right for you until you make decisions from the right place. You do not always need the right reasons-you need the right feelings. Learn this and you have learnt the important lesson. Things will be well. Stop thinking-Do each day-They are each unique and beautiful...don't spoil them by thinking . We are here as you know. Call us and we hear you.
That's all-get on with it...we love you.
PS: We are telling you to go home so go! But watch it when you get there. Don't rush around to please others. Stay where you are comfortable at each point. Don't go to any place under pressure. Keep up the pace you now have here and all will flow as it should. Why do you assume going home means tension? Becuase you make it happen. Follow this new pace you are learning here and all will happen as it should. Do a slow moving. all will find it's place in due time. You can do it but don't let things from outside get the better of your own inner peace.
Well, that was the longest channeling I've ever had a a really amazing one! And for those who still believe it comes from my subconscious, well, I personally don't care where it comes from...it says great stuff!!
Monday November 1st
Now, just my day!....Received 2 beautiful letters today-one quite unexpected from Theo and Monique and the other from Anaat. But both were exactly what I needed to heal my very injured self-image. I had begun to see myself as demanding and self-centered and vidictive through the eyes of Avik and was very disturbed with his seeing me as such. I know I am not always an easy person to live with...but I never thought I was self-centered and certainly not vindictive. And these lovely people who only knew me for a couple of months last year wrote, com pletely unsolicited as they do not know all that has happened here...jsut that I decided to leave Avik ove a question of trust. They said such encourageing and lovely th9ings...and we do all need to hear these things once in awhile. When we are felling "right" we KNOW these things and tell them to ourselves...but we are quite fragile creatures and for some reason we still find it easy to believe bad things about ourselves when they are thrown at us at weak times...The good things need to be reinforced at our wekaer moments of self-doubt...and today...this lovely letter arrived to do just that!
And a very specail "lecture" from sweet Anat! She really gave me the words I needed to hear before coming home. I'm sure both of these letters were not just "by chance" As I had asked for calm and strength last night before going to sleep before coming home and it was sent in the form of these 2 letters.
The white monkeys are here in strength and I may perhaps even get a pic of them. Avik is beocming more and more into himself as the days go by. Shopping each day...reading for ours...speaking very little...being in the same room is weird but no great hardship.
Well, that's about it for today....
My love to all
Well, I'll go back to yesterday eventually, but first want to write that things are falling nicely into place. I arealize now that aside from all the other shit going on, I was also sick for at least a week with some virus which seems to be literally floating around town. I am sure it is airborne as almost everyone you meet seems to have it in one form or another, some worse, some not so bad. Abdellah had it the worst of all of us at the guesthouse, I was someplace in the middle, now Avik seems to have picked it up although he is to vain to admit that he is human enough to actually get sick like everyone else who he had been calling "hypochondriacs" for days! It involved headachs, slight cold and cough, eventually found it's way to the stomach for a few days but the biggest symptom for everyone seemed to be complete draining of energy, which can be very depressing to say the least. I did lots and lots of reiki and fi nally went to get the horrible "goat turd" pills from the Tibetan doctor and I seemed to be almost completely recovered...I certainly feel alot more energy and have my appetite back but am sure I lost weight over the past week...that will be a first for me in India!!
The weather remains cold but beautiful and I've gotten some more warm clothing to tide me over...the Tibetan doctor actually blamed the cold dry weather for the spread of "something" in the air...same as a western doctor telling you a virus was around....
Anyway, things seem to be coming into focus for me more and more each day...I have very littel money to get me through the next 10 days but will make due...Still need to buy a few things the girls asked for and have hopefully budgeted for it...if not I will have to borrow from Avik and pay him back when I get home...hate to do that!
Anyway...Yesterday morning I had a really beautiful channeling which I will write in a moment, and this morning, was up really early as I usually am when I am feeling well and by 7:45 was already out on the roof after shower, meditation, laundry etc. And then I just sat there with my eyes closed absorbing the warmth of the sun down to the depth of my soul, absorbing the sounds and smells and feel of the air on my face...the bird calls etc. When all of a sudden I heard a bird chirping (it was more like a consistent call to me to listen) very close by. When I opened my eyes he was sitting directly opposite me, looking at me and chirping as if talking to be to listen. He sat there for more than 5 minutes and didn't stop "talking" the whole time! It was quite amazing, and it brought me back to a similar incident 3 years ago when I woke up one morning to find a bird IN my room also talking to me...Both were sparrows which are called in hebrew tzipor dror which means bird of freedom, and they both brought the same message to me...reminding me of the importance of freedom and the terrible things we do to ourselves when we "sell our souls" for any reason....freedom in the sense of being true to yourself no matter what and not thinking that someone else can make life easier for you or that love can bring you freedom...these things are external and temporary ...only what comes from inside and is true is what is real and right....
And now to the channeling from YESTERDAY morning!!
It's gone it's over forget it...mistakes happen...don't delude yourself ever again in the future. LIsten to us and your soul more carefully. Don't think you "know better". Thinking is what you do best and do worst. Don't use thinking in the wrong situations. Move on to a better place=- better things will then follow. We ARE always here but you are not! We love you and always do our best but we cannot do it alone. So be with US as we are with you and things will be easier for you-life is a good place to be...you know that but have a way of screwing things up when you think you know best at the wrong times. Go inside more-not outside. Listen more carefully-be more aware. You are one with your soul and it will never be right for you until you make decisions from the right place. You do not always need the right reasons-you need the right feelings. Learn this and you have learnt the important lesson. Things will be well. Stop thinking-Do each day-They are each unique and beautiful...don't spoil them by thinking . We are here as you know. Call us and we hear you.
That's all-get on with it...we love you.
PS: We are telling you to go home so go! But watch it when you get there. Don't rush around to please others. Stay where you are comfortable at each point. Don't go to any place under pressure. Keep up the pace you now have here and all will flow as it should. Why do you assume going home means tension? Becuase you make it happen. Follow this new pace you are learning here and all will happen as it should. Do a slow moving. all will find it's place in due time. You can do it but don't let things from outside get the better of your own inner peace.
Well, that was the longest channeling I've ever had a a really amazing one! And for those who still believe it comes from my subconscious, well, I personally don't care where it comes from...it says great stuff!!
Monday November 1st
Now, just my day!....Received 2 beautiful letters today-one quite unexpected from Theo and Monique and the other from Anaat. But both were exactly what I needed to heal my very injured self-image. I had begun to see myself as demanding and self-centered and vidictive through the eyes of Avik and was very disturbed with his seeing me as such. I know I am not always an easy person to live with...but I never thought I was self-centered and certainly not vindictive. And these lovely people who only knew me for a couple of months last year wrote, com pletely unsolicited as they do not know all that has happened here...jsut that I decided to leave Avik ove a question of trust. They said such encourageing and lovely th9ings...and we do all need to hear these things once in awhile. When we are felling "right" we KNOW these things and tell them to ourselves...but we are quite fragile creatures and for some reason we still find it easy to believe bad things about ourselves when they are thrown at us at weak times...The good things need to be reinforced at our wekaer moments of self-doubt...and today...this lovely letter arrived to do just that!
And a very specail "lecture" from sweet Anat! She really gave me the words I needed to hear before coming home. I'm sure both of these letters were not just "by chance" As I had asked for calm and strength last night before going to sleep before coming home and it was sent in the form of these 2 letters.
The white monkeys are here in strength and I may perhaps even get a pic of them. Avik is beocming more and more into himself as the days go by. Shopping each day...reading for ours...speaking very little...being in the same room is weird but no great hardship.
Well, that's about it for today....
My love to all
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